My letter to Sam Schaeffer

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Continuing with the theme of how to manifest positivity every time you need it..

I first read Sam’s story on Tuesday 18th September 2018, nearly 27 years after becoming ill myself. I think you could say his story resonated! In fact it was the first time I understood my fear of rejection and humiliation. AND I could see how they were related to my stored or repressed anger. The doctor’s called it M.E. it was also similar to Parkinson’s or loads of other illnesses with similar symptoms.. labelling things is such a control thing isn’t it?

But thanks to Sam I was able to see how Social Anxiety when it’s allowed to escalate can become almost any illness in the medical dictionary.

So on Wednesday I relived a childhood memory around my relationship with my father. This was a real EUREKA moment aaahhhh I have a lot to be grateful for to a lot of people but thank you Sam for putting it all into context. You too can read the whole of Sam’s story here..

(Although I don’t think folk are lazy I think they lack courage and are afraid of feeling their fear of anxiety.)

So believing in yourself and having self esteem are essential but grieving is even more important and leads us to release that stored away anger from our bodies, minds or souls that you were taught was wrong to express… even when you were being attacked at school or on the street either emotionally or physically…

It’s important to realise that anger cleanses and protects us and it can cleanse your relationships when they get stagnant through familiarity, it’s a great tool but we’re taught at an early age that it’s wrong so none or very few of us have good practise in using it as a tool to help us. (Society are afraid of conflict but condone war – what a contradiction!) This is why so many of us go to football matches as it’s one place where it’s acceptable to vent our spleens!!

Men don’t cry that’s unfortunate social grooming too but they can ground energy and cleanse their anger away into the earth and so can women during meditation using breathing techniques.

Knowing and accepting your flaws helps you accept other people’s flaws too. My Mum and Dad where far from perfect they had flaws when it came to explain social etiquette to a child of 3 years!


After feeling and releasing anger, sadness or fear it’s important to manifest something uplifting straightaway. I sing, talk, write, play piano or alchemy singing bowls that are a sublime way to lift repression and help us flawed humans to feel again.

I use to need to talk and be heard so much I produced and presented a radio show. It gave me this huge high but it didn’t solve my repressed anger issues. The only way I have managed that is like Sam change my perspective of what might or might not happen and instead of wiring my brain to overload thinking of all the possible scenario’s – I don’t. I stop asking why and what if and accept and trust all that life gives me and I’m grateful for just having that life.

We can build self esteem and self belief together by doing what we’ve always wanted to do but have allowed social etiquette or constraints or judgement to stop us. Let’s be brave by seeing our anger as power and holding that power in our hand and using it for the good of ourselves and our planet.. don’t waste it by giving it away…but invest it in healing ourselves feel that power (it’s also energy, money..) in your hand and retain and don’t give it away willy nilly. Visualise it in your hand every morning when you wake up and every night before you go to sleep and ask yourself how am I going to use my power to help today.


Manifesting abundance to transmute fear

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Abundance? What does that mean exactly?

Plenty..plenty of…? Growth, prosperity, love, name it it can be yours if you focus your mind on it for long enough! Think about it day and night, dream about it.

So what is your it? What would you like abundance of? Flowers, birds, art, education, money, cars…what does the planet need…peace, happiness, laughter, joy, nature.

IMG_3662We’re having an abundance of growth this year thanks to the hot summer and now the rain. This is a rhododendron in flower during August! We have also had an abundance of these…


Dry lines on a football pitch and fields too. I wonder why the cracks come particularly deep and wide where the lines have been drawn.

What have you had in abundance this Summer?

If you don’t know what you want in abundance how do you find out. Well I meditate and I ask my heart what i love the most heres my list of things to think about which will manifest an abundance:-

Music – I’m learning to play the piano, I practise everyday for at least 10 minutes, it makes me smile.

Singing – I listen to and sing lyrics of my favourite music all day everyday.

Percussion instruments – when i was in infants school the only thing i remember enjoying was playing the Triangle and the tambourine. My parents bought me a child’s toy record player when i was 4 years best present..except for my red bike. This Summer I’ve focused on buying percussion instruments, listening to them all day everyday. Now i have an abundance of them and music around me.

I would like a new car, I’m manifesting a Triumph Stag and a Mustang!!

To connect with these things sometimes we need to draw, write about, talk about or visualise  them, whatever comes easy for you…thinking alone might not be enough.Its all about thinking, doing, believing.

Why will this help me transmute fear I hear you say..well if we think, focus and do things that make us feel love then that will transmute any fear we might have stored away somewhere in our minds, body or soul.

Key to happy life is manifesting by focusing on those things that you know make you happy even if they frighten you in some way. I’d love to hear about them.

What have you had an abundance of this Summer?




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Why is manifesting courage so important?

Here I’ve made a couple of list, the first list is things I’m afraid of, we can fear anything we choose to fear, the second is a list of the opposite things. Things we can manifest to balance out the things we fear most. You could print out or copy this list or better still make your own list..BE BRAVE! Then number your top ten fears then look at what will offset them in the second list.

Hate                                          Love

Rigidness                                 Grace

Anger                                       Content

Death                                        Life

Bad                                           Good

Lack                                         Abundance

Persecution                             Peace

Sadness                                    Happiness

Fear                                           Courage

Pain                                           Pleasure

Revenge                                    Forgiveness

Jealousy                                    Admiration

Rejection                                  Acceptance

Conflict                                     Agreement

Negative                                   Positive

Evil                                            Virtuous

Without feeling the one of the left we can’t feel the opposite one on the right. A balance between these things can be struck by manifesting the opposite or we can live in extremes and bob from one to the other, which in my experience causes illness. Striking a balance is our aim.

Ways of Manifesting

Draw, write about or visualise that thing or an object that you associate with that thing. If you’re struggling to reach an agreement for example and you are in conflict then you could draw a handshake or write about someone shaking hands or visualise yourself shaking hands with the person you’re in conflict with. What works for you?

Its important to recognise that we cannot control any of these things. What happens if we try? Well we repress them into ourselves, into our soul, into our mind into our body. So for example repressing hate creates pain, then we repress love because without feeling hate we can’t feel love either. This is a law of nature.. If i know that I’m most afraid of persecution for instance I may need to draw that, an icon that represents persecution and then draw an object that I associate with peace to balance it. The second part is obviously an essential part of the process.

If we repress love and happiness, which some of us do, because these feelings sometimes  make us feel afraid and vulnerable, we sometimes turn our life into the first list because we feel most comfortable the we’re in pain. So be brave and choose love. Love burns off fear and all negative things because it boosts our energy level or aura if you prefer. The brighter our aura shines the more negativity we burn off.

The key is to allow ..have the courage to allow everything…whatever your mind chooses to label good or bad, it doesn’t matter just allow yourself to feel all things. These things are LIFE we cannot control life. Yes we can plan and we can change the way we respond to life but life it self just happens.




The key is finding out what helps us raise our vibration naturally this helps us control our ego, one thing in life we can control, and being brave enough to pursue it. Good luck.

Feather on my seat

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I just couldn’t think of anything to blog about i returned to my seat in the garden…

IMG_3613However did that get there? A pigeon feather..I collect feathers even pigeon feathers.

What sign do you think this is giving me? My mutterings today continue to say stay focused on exercise for my poor ailing body and singing with my crystal bowls, perhaps its just the pigeon showing its appreciation?

What do you think?

Blowing away other peoples stress

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Stress can cause us all sorts of issues both physically and psychologically. Sometimes it isn’t even our stress! If when we go out and meet others and they start telling us about their stressful experiences we have to not let that stress into our system. We must not absorb other peoples stress.

Easier said than done i hear you say, especially if the stress belongs to your husband, wife, partner, child or friend. Letting other peoples stress into your heart only causes more stress and this stress is then passed on from one person to another like a virus or the flu. Feeling someone else’s stress isn’t going to help you to help them. Continued>>



How do we protect ourselves from other peoples stress? We can detach ourselves emotionally from other peoples stuff and deflect it even though they’re your friend or family. This can take some practise. I cover my tummy and close my eyes. Children’s stress is particularly easy to absorb. Especially if they need hugs owing to a particularly stressful experience they’re going through. But not owning it but helping them and supporting them through it without it affecting you is challenging.

Sometimes we don’t manage to deflect it, letting other peoples stress in to our body, mind, soul, spirit and this can have an adverse effect on our health. BUT when we do take it on board we can get rid of it straight away by using deep breathing and visualisation techniques, like for example visualising,.. if you imagine you can see the person in your mind that has ‘given’ or projected the stress on to you and you have absorbed this stress like a ‘virus’ can simply blow it away with your out breathe. So using a very large gulp of air ..breathe in expanding your lungs wide.. and then blow out this stress with the OUT breath. Focus hard though with your mind, where in your mind or body has this other persons stress landed?

Lets do this for a few minutes.. Sit with your eyes closed and focus on every bit of stress in your body and/or mind and when you see it.. blow it away. You can teach your children, friend, partner, spouse to do the same thing.

We might need to spend regular moments through the day focusing on doing just this when we work in a busy environment.  We might be constantly blowing out through our mouths for some time while experiences are relived.  Then you can then ask the wind, the rain or the snow, your angel or your spirit guide, whatever you can connect best with to take that negative stress away into the sky!

Bach Flower Remedies are very useful for alleviating this habit of absorbing others stress, that can sometimes make us angry, sad or frightened. Getting rid of the stress is good but changing the way we take it on board in the first place and countering it in the future is also important thing to do. You could try Red Chestnut, Walnut or Vervain Bach flower Remedies to help you change your behaviour but don’t use them instead of seeking medical advice if you are ill.

A Gemstone that i use to help shield me from negative influences in this world is Labradorite.



It’s an amazing transforming stone one to keep in your top pocket or your bra!

What other ways are there? Please leave a comment..